perfection.

i cannot believe it took me this long to realize that i'm so much happier and so much better of with things this way.

its been so long since i've been able to say i'm genuinely happy, and i am. i really am.

and things are only gunna get better from here :)

i had a great conversation with nicole today. it made me realize how so many good things come from the bad ones. and that i should be thankful for every step my life has taken, cause without them i wouldn't be exactly where i am right now...and i can't picture wanting to be anywhere else.

i'm excited for life for the first time in years. i'm excited to get up every day and do my job and talk to all my friends and see everyone i love and not have to worry. i don't have to give myself to anyone else right now. which at first was a little weird, but fuck. this is my time. i'm sure i've said all these exact same things a couple entries ago, but i don't give a shit ahah.

my family is having a big dinner tonight. i of course ate out earlier cause no one told me about it haha but whatever. i got to see aunts and uncles i havent seen for ages. i even got a super late belated birthday present! not even knowingly they got me a bath set from sephora, and it comes with a little travel bag with cupcakes on the inside! i was stoked.

anyways, time for more coffee. of course! haah.

<3