would you go along with someone like me

Aries: Your romantic life is about to take an interesting turn. Things are going to get shaken up - get ready!

facebook horoscopes make me excited about life ahahhahaha.

theyve been pretty bang on lately though, so i'm stoked.

they officially know my order at my starbucks. julia went in yesterday and ordered the same thing as me and they were all so astonished. i'm apprently the only person at that location who has ever ordered my drink. they even named it. "naked white mocha". ahahha thats what they call out now.

its gunna suck having to train new starbucks bitches ahhaha.

one more week of this hellhole and i'll be entirely worry free!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

bahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

that's all i have to say.

i love myself :)

i need something to do while i let my nails dry and don't touch anything.

i got a manicure today, and in between that and getting coffee i changed my pants in my car to my new pair of extremely tight (and incredibley hot) bermuda shorts...and totally ruined everything! well, ruined my nails at least. but i basically fixed them, so its okay.

i'm glad i've found myself at home right now, and bored, because procrastination has gotten in the way of my date with my resume. i've been meaning to update it for WEEKS now and keep putting it off. that, and packing. but anyways, i have to email it in to chelsea tomorrow so she can forward it to oakville. hopefully they want me :)

if not i'm totally going to work with julia. i'm gunna go crazy without seeing her everyday. :(

this weekend was great. saturday night was awesome. well everything about it except the fact i was fed a poison cookie! but i did survive the attack of the raisins until next time.

yesterday was good too. saw 1408 and got dinner. good movie. john cusak is getting a little too beefy lately...he needs to hit the gym before my love dies. then got coffee and watched children of men. actually i bought it cause i couldn't find it in the rental section ahah! but it was a good movie so i don't mind.

today i went shopping and spend tooooooo much money! i need to start work so bad. my visa is somehow gunna get maxed out again...which isn't hard to believe ahah but would be terrible.

anyways, nails are dry and i need to go try and get some time in on my resume before i probably go drink more caffine!!

xoxox

ch-ch-ch-chaaaangesss

im gunna be completely honest in this post. not hold back, not worry about whom i'm exposing or not. or if anyone really finds out how i really feel.

this past month has been the most fucked up in a long time. its been up and down, my emotions have been all over the court. going over options, what do i really want? who do i really want?

i've figured out i don't want anyone. for the time being, at least. when you give all of yourself to someone, and constantly have it thrown back in your face for something "better", it kind of takes a toll. especially when better doesn't turn out that way at all.

i had a friend tell me not long ago that i have no self respect. as hard as that was to hear, and as harsh as it seems, sometimes brutal honesty is what you need to hear. continuously putting myself into a situation where i already know what the outcome is going to be, is a fucking dumb idea. and i did it countless times.

i'm almost happy by myself.

i'm moving on, and moving up. and i, for the first time in a long time, don't feel like i NEED anyone there with me. to help me through it, to hold my hand. im okay by myself.

as much as i thought that i needed support and just wanted that cushion to fall into, sometimes hitting the ground isnt that bad. and really wakes you up. i don't want things in my life that are going to make me unhappy, or impede its progression. so from now on only positive things and people are allowed in my life. if its going to make me feel like shit, for one second, its not worth it.

and it feels so good to realize and enforce this.

it feels amazing.

this week is full of packing and organizing.

these next couple weeks are going to be insane in regards to me-time.

i'm by myself in a two bedroom apartment, with almost no furniture. no one to talk to.

i can't wait to see how i feel at the end of it ahah.

come over and keep me company if i like you.

xoxoxox

i cannot wait to be back home.

i decided i'm gunna move back the second last weekend in july. fuck my life is so in limbo right now...and i have so much to do in the next three weeks. but at the same time im so stoked that everything is moving on.

this weekend has been pretty crazy. it reminded me how much fun i can have when i'm not worried about other things all the time.

thats all for now. i need coffee.

oh, and ps, because i know you read this...we all know you're still in love with him. get a life. xooooooo!!!

ummmmmmmm.....

in reality, most people i talk to don't make a difference in my life.

so if you don't like me, don't waste either of our time talking to me.

seems pretty simple, doesn't it?

randomness all around

my horoscope for today:

"You'll find yourself in a situation where you want to be flexible, but if you're too laid back, you'll get walked all over. Make your opinion known."

pretty applicable to my life.

my opinion is that i just hate being lied to about anything, but whatever makes you happy, go for it.

i've been having to hit the spacebar on here pretty hard lately. my computer's probably fucked, too. i was suppose to go home this weekend, but after a little too much party last night and not enough sleep before this morning, i decided to stay here and be a loser and watch a movie by myself tonight and sleep. good enough plan for me.

life's been throwing curve balls at me.

i'm totally gunna make this one a home run though.

and am definetly going to stop with the baseball analogies....

ps im watching baseball right now by myself ahha what have i turned into.

whatever, its background noise.

cuddle buddy needed.

that's all.

xox

lame-os and birthday boobie cupcakes, what a week.

i had some stuff written down on here, and then i decided to post pictures and then all the stuff disappeared. it wasn't really anything important, anyways, so don't get too bummed out about it.

i'm not impressed right now. i was a couple minutes ago, but not so much right now. there's certain people who are in my life, who really shouldn't be there at all. and its because of association, and their little weasel ways that they somehow keep making cameos. and i'm pretty over it, to be honest. pretty really over it.

i've sacrificed me being happy for years ahha for what? nothing. obviously it doesn't make me unhappy, anymore, but i just think its lame.

ANYWAAAAAAAAYS fuck that noise, go keep doing everything you want to try to be cool, "bahhhh"-ing the whole way along, and have a nice life.

swam on monday, talked to an old friend today, BBQ with birthday boobie cupcakes on friday. get stoked!

sick of:

-people's holy-er than thou attitudes

-having to walk home past a million crazys every day

-hypocrites

-almost everything to do with this city, actually

-how time passes slowly when you need it to speed up

will always love:

-bff's who listen to me and make me feel better

-licorice parties, with or without other patrons

-telling people all the things that make you a shitty person

-shit-talking, in general, people i don't like

-my big, beautiful bed

-a long overdue cryfest

today was a bad day.

it made me look at some people differently

and made me remember why i love some people so much in the first place.

i need the weekend so bad, and i got another 24 hours until i get to it.

xoxoxo

Color Quiz Click here to read the rest of the results.

this quiz was pretty fucking accurate ahah.

totally interesting to read.

this weekend was good. i had an awesome time at home. fuck toronto, i can't wait to leave. totally gunna be having a see yuh party at the end of july, so keep your ears posted!